The Humble Performer Of His Difficult Mission
Keep your leadership under control, accentuating the inner state, as well as the difference of the facts you unfold.
Up on a pile of hope the tormented soul of an innocent being watches, it looks as if it broke out from the world where dreams can easily come true. He is terrified by every twitch in his fibers, by every unfiltered thought that goes through the lenses of determination, which change their properties and become smokey as the request for "a life insurance" drops.
Catherine is the prisoner of Buffalo Bill, thrown into a dark and terrible dungeon, underground. Because in the very deep hole, in the furnace of fears that decreases the temperature of human possibilities to feel themselves, there is no expiration date for wishes and passions. In tense situations, thoughts don’t respect the transparency standards of the being whose value system is turned upside down.
Catherine Martin looks in a fixed point, maybe the point of revelation that she had become almost unaccustomed with. Is she looking for a mirror in search of her own image? What should she see? What should she feel when she sees the human remains? The morbid visions, striking as a strong shock felt all the way to the bone, take over her liveliness. But they don’t blow away the breathe that God put in her warrior soul.
Matter vibrates in the hands of the Creator. In a second of lucidity, as if produced by divine providence, Catherine goes from one extreme to the other. Suddenly, a succession of emotions warmly intertwine with the dearest memories, giving birth to a multitude of new beauties and glitters. Hope replaces disappointment. The man reborn out of pain, out of immense divine love, the man invested with new reforming strengths can’t ask his court of judges to admit the resignation of that Myself recharged with new spiritual gifts.
Leadership: Can you develop an attitude and acceptance of what is happening, under the belief that all you live and experience requires validation by trying to know yourself better in a different way?
The harmonious structure resulting from this interior firmness in the battle for faith goes into a high-power cycle. Like an energy wave, the Ego intensely propagates new norms and apirations, new control points in the way captive’s way of "being" . The reactions to reduce toxic agents, such as fear, uncertainty, restlessness, lament, frustration, depression, are coupled with establishing new free radicals. And annihilated by new combat formations. The interior energy, which triggers new feelings and attitudes is activated in stages, avoiding the turbulences that its sudden release might produce.
There is no place for a free man together with a tyrannical attitude. In herself, Catherine, subject to the strongest emotions, has taken a decision. A capital one. But the release requires abolishing darkness, requires an effort just as huge as the rehabilitation process. She has to stand up to the most profound negative moods of her being and fight against them.
The heart doesn’t accept to be silenced and to be attributed the inanimate harshness of a stone. But shouts with all its strength, with all the energy of the unpredictable illumination entailed in such circumstance. Waking up all the fibers that take part in the confrontation between present and future, between to ways of measuring life that are in full opposition.
"I will bear everything, I will walk down that immense hallway of questions without answer, that underground hallway of anxiety. Until I will be victorious ! "
And, with the extreme fervor produced by this thought, with that decision that could facilitate any upgrade of the interior configuration, Catherine decisively strikes in the weakness of the opposing fate that almost never accepts deviations from the rule. She begins to get to know herself better in a different way, in a state of utmost challenge, when she must definitively close the boundary of his “mother’s child” and stand alone in battle, at the level of a Papillon who chooses to escape from a hopeless place.
Leadership: Do you respect the personal space through which you relate to yourself more than to the outside, with the cost of experiencing the situation where, as much as you try to fight, you can’t say that you have outdone yourself?
What limits man to being strictly a passive entity, unable to oppose an external authority and which has the merit of being investigated as connected to leadership, is precisely that side of his personality, of other tens of sides. In which the supreme "I" begs for forgiveness. Especially when this authority, similarly to an aggressor who disturbs the individual’s safety can’t be silenced, can be brought to zero. Or at least to an acceptable controllable value.
To prove true strength and resolution when faced with your opponent, who keeps advancing, becomes the basis of sustainable development of your entire being. The basis for creating any vision of the world in the attempt to be aware of and to beautify life experience.
Catherine tries to cope with the circumstances of her destiny, she tries to prevent Buffalo Bill’s plans from happening, puts her intelligence and cunning on the table, but she still does not seem to be able to outdo herself. She fails. Why?
Because she cannot give up the state of weakness of her nature, because she cannot get the recognition of others, because courage is nothing without power, because having something means nothing without luck, because looking in a mirror is meaningless if you do not see yourself as someone else, because your skills are for naught if you lack perspective, because you having a good message is worthless if you cannot package it right, because having a higher education is useless if you lack street smarts.
Leadership: Do you use your consciousness as a shield in interacting with the outside world, conforming to a situation that consumes you a lot or trying to make possible that thing you believe you cannot do?
The poet and Lebanese philosopher Kahlil Gibran mentioned a very wise aspect: "In order to get through the trials of life, we must respect that personal space through which we relate with ourselves and not with others." It is a progressive formula which can’t be abandoned so easily, a way of expressing the agreement with the attitude that individualizes you in the ambiguous situations when weakness meets power.
In a game of chess, the opposition is the situation when two kings face each other on a rank or file, with only one square in-between them. In the case of leadership, the opposition is a situation when you are face to face with yourself with only a minimum or maximum accepted distance from your evolution potential. And from the potential of breaking ties with the rhythms of life that take control over you.
Ensuring a maximum efficiency of your own being in order to be fully prepared to take on the interior battle with your system of values, intensely developing those norms and aspirations, new control points in the way of "being", becomes absolutely necessary. Only in this way can a new perspective be drawn on one's own person and on others.
You will never be able to leave "the opposition" if you are at a disadvantage because of a complex of inadaptation to the "shocks" that life produces so often. And leadership will not be able to benefit from the advantage of being close to the wide area of future development. So arm yourself with that determination that could facilitate any upgrade of the interior configuration and strike in the weakness of the opposing fate that almost never accepts deviations from the rule.
Consciousness is the point where you feel self-satisfied and strong in the face of a difficult attempt, although you are sorry that this has happened to you.
The Humble Performer Of His Difficult Mission is the man who understood its mission and does everything he can in order to fulfill it. This implies a permanent interior battle against those negative demobilizing interior reactions.
* Note: The Silence of the Lambs (1991)
