It's A Sin

Test your level of faith, acting under the impetus of seeking truth and optimizing it in a particular context.

I had to assume the responsibility of sin to allow me to overcome the limits of understanding the "truth" to the level of self-sacrifice in the context of the philosophy of value given to every possible outcome of an action, but which was undoubtedly antagonistic to the Bible. This unique philosophy, the ultimate appeal of the criterion of critical and erudite rationality that develops hermetic theories, seems to derive from the algorithm of an existential pathway expressed in no intelligible language, often called destiny, an intense mixture of falling into time and being outside of time.

It was a sacrifice consubstantial with the outward appearance of defeat, doubt, contempt, compared to what was permanent, solid, stable, and generally "obsolete", forever with a sense of shame, leaving me as if hypnotized by what riled me up even more: the violation of the connection with the divine. "Father you fought me ‘cause I didn’t care and I still don’t understand."

To believe what cannot be seen, to imagine what may not be true, under the guilt of my destiny as a magical chant, that is, being surprised by a repetitive sense of shame, in an exercise in futility and despair that I could not manage to control, was congruent with the object of my obsession for highlighting the mysterious and amazing discoveries.

Doubtful discoveries, dependent on the unknown of invariable laws, were made through contractual clauses of travel financing in an enigmatic, symbolic, perhaps unintentional reality. And the reward of this delicious act was to proclaim what I never thought I would see: another face of learning the Sciences of Life according to another face of God. "Father forgive me, I tried not to do it."

Do your forms of protest against the "inadmissible admitted by reason" answer the supreme appeal of a single criterion: truth cannot be possessed, only expressed?

Dostoevsky conceived his characters from sensibilities and attachments against something considered holy, which burst at one moment, but which he compensated with some special qualities. For example, the Prince Mishkin, his soul did not know evil because he could not conceive it. When he was obliged to take note of the offensive presence of evil and attribute a blame to it, he found legitimate arguments and explanations, ready to convince himself to accept it as a fatality. At the sublime level of experience and knowledge, good and evil reached the definitive phase of coincidentia oppositorum.

The jarring threads that linked me to a sense of my own importance stemming from the assimilation of science at a higher level, an exile close to the center of the universe, connected to the sense that masters any subject of knowledge and understanding, for whatever I wanted to do, they offered coherence to the confrontation between good and evil. Thus, the change manifests itself again and again as in an open book, without setting up associations with the pages of a denied and unknown power.

The good and the evil, which were only bearable if I reasoned for them to exist, if they had a goal worthwhile to bear their effects, validated my obsession with the significance of the happenings that took place in my life independent of my will and intervention. Few of us take into account the hazard factor. "It’s a, It’s a sin."

Everything I’ve ever done, Everything I ever do, Every place I’ve ever been, Everywhere I’m going to, It’s a sin. Because the very force of the soul, the experiences and beliefs that go out of warranty during the course of events, disturbed by the presence of thoughts accumulated throughout the day, imply the regret of not having interpreted the sight of those on the outside, the will of God, the loneliness of a philosopher without mercy in a universe of unlimited possibilities.

The sin a seeker of truths is guilty of is that of reflecting upon things and situations he wants to rid himself of, without trying to use them for personal development in order to serve God.

Many obstacles to investigating acts of unknown nature that I wanted to access through the perspective of a fixed point, when I look back upon my life, as the flight of the eagle that leaves no trace, could translate into an artistic creation that wants to say too much, but it fails to do so because of the complexity of the non-linear path of life and its contradictions. And especially due to the aggressive projection of an imperfect world, determined by the appearance of a tragic or hostile consciousness.

A very painful feeling determined by the belief that something is wrong with me, it made me worthy of vanity which takes void of a precipice, a relentless sentence issued upon an imaginary world that announces itself with the strange pretenses of discussing the consecrated doings of a supreme authority, determined my symbolic annihilation in a space of captivity without exit.

Thus, I had come to turn into a prisoner of a terrifying limitation, which had as a consequence the undertaking of an increase in punishment, no matter when or where has one thing in common too: the effort of understanding life, to touch its enigma and – in an incomparably huge degree – the impossibility of catching it in the vices of an implacable force.

Living by faith is an expression of your need to be closer to those which are not seen but are required to be examined and weighed depending on the degree of valuing the unique gifts you have been endowed with.

Seek and you shall find. Knock and the door shall open for you. Ask and you shall receive. On one condition: to believe in something that cannot be seen, nor demonstrated, nor denied.

The truth that will make you live in your world, not that of others, can be optimized only in a context of evolution that allows you to test the experiences of a good which harms, or of an evil that does good, with another way of understanding them.

It's A Sin whenever you try to understand something beyond humanity, beyond its earthly relations, beyond all the interests of fleeting life, because you lose sight of the beauty of the moment that must be experienced in immediacy.

Here the saying remains true: "Sin costs you more than you are ready to pay, but it can lead you further than you would want and keeps you longer than you wanted to stay."