Alone Tonight

Learn to turn leadership into the entity of the essence of being someone else, amplifying the message obtained from the oscillations of the connotations specific to the self-rediscovery.

I stumbled upon the second game of a self-rediscovery achieved through a sort of coming together of things that cannot be seen, making themselves felt between sleep and waking, integrated in the fullness of an active and moving whole. I thought that only Dante could involuntarily climb down into the darkest abyss, going through its inaccessible dimensions, assimilating all of its substrates and valences, so that afterwards he can miraculously return to the top of life’s dimension.

Helpless, but lucid, I feel I became the prisoner of a feeling expressed through means provided by a leitmotif, by a guiding idea that can change my conception about the relationships between "Above" and "Beyond" hidden through the specters of the night. Often times, loneliness is their product. Can you guess who opens my eyes upon waking?

Alone Tonight is my way of working towards the establishment of a prolonged rest, a bleak silence, a dive in the absence of any interaction with the world, the removal of any meaning from its context. It means understanding, relief, forgiveness, relaxation, undertaking of self-consciousness. It involves experiencing the essence of being someone else in the deafness of an Ego that does not require approval, acceptance, justification and praise for what it is and does.

But this doesn’t mean that I can escape from the supervision of a substantial intelligence that correspond, beyond all understanding, to a sort of imaginary intrusion in a world in which, in reality, I will never have access to. It is a challenge of putting myself in the shoes of an Elohim in a mysterious land, boundless and timeless, beyond laws and edges of the universe. And if I’d fought with all the strength I held inside, I wouldn’t be out here.

Can you take on an experience that accentuates the feeling of vulnerability, integrating yourself into a reality that gives you hope that what you see could also be different?

To turn leadership into the entity of the essence of being someone else, on the basis of appropriating beliefs that underlie a modified self-image, you need to amplify the message received from the oscillations of connotations – positive and negative, specific to an absence from the fragile box of the world you usually perceive. Alone tonight is the man who tests his Ego with the conviction that he can change himself, recreate himself, be his own master, only if he moves away from the superficial ways of the world and seeks to find his inner peace.

The man who wants to guarantee the revelation of unique truths of himself, to which only advanced and esoteric science can answer, needs to achieve a sort of imaginary intrusion in a world in which others never have access to. He not only bows to the reality of the self that needs to be experienced fully by constantly relating to a world full of color and diversity, but to a world in which black gains more ground, seduces and impresses just by being different.

The world’s greatest inventor, Nikola Tesla, always wanted to find the answer to the question: what happens to a setting star and with the sun that is no more?

At some point in life, I believe that every man of science takes night and darkness as a reference point, this imperious ambiguity that allows enough suspicions, motivated or not, generating hidden effects, leaving you to believe anything. I’ve wrestled with angles all my life, It’s always the halos and the wings that keep me blind.

Can you get away from a point that you carry within you incessantly, removing yourself from a center of the world that is actually you?

Wilhelm Hauff, one of the world’s greatest writers, confessed in a moment of “Alone Tonight” what exactly it was that made him feel great, free and calm:

“I am but a poor young man who has to make his way through the world with his quill… I belong to all, I belong to myself, but I do not belong to any school… I do not feel above me a master or teacher to whom I owe obedience, beyond the eternal laws of good and beauty, to which I tend, even so, in an imperfect way. I may not be able to keep form far from the influence of time, but my spirit will remain un-Goethean, un-Tieckean, un-Schlegelean and immovable.”

I feel the same thing, as a kind of synchronization between the chosen spirits. I have often tried to surprise myself with a philosopher’s hypostasis, to speak to myself in a timeless frame, as if I were talking to God, even if only in a temporary way, avoiding the bypassing paths of immeasurable pride.

Because I have to move away from a point that I carry incessantly within me, that is, to stay away from the motivation of being someone else, which is nothing more than the desire to evade through knowledge, through language, through ostentatiously distributed book references. At the same time, moving away from a center of the world in which I feel like a God, waiting for a reassuring confirmation only from my mind, I actually assume the right to be forgotten by the world. Alone Tonight becomes the means by which my objective Ego becomes a transcendental self, as if wanting to say: “I’m still not enough to change myself.”

Over the characteristic of frequency of these self-integrations within the darkness of an open mouth of time, on which depends the fidelity of principles of reason to the detriment of others, a great importance is exerted by the low frequency of the impulse of leaving my "non-happenings" suspended.

Something I have not yet experienced, is multiplied through monologue, in the absence of any interaction with the world, by going deeper into a meditative content. In fact, this is also the subtle meaning attributed to the expression: "There is nowhere in this universe to hide from you tonight."

Leadership captures my need to be a total being, a respected one, fully understood and appreciated, that does not disappear permanently in an intimate setting, far from the world; only then does it sharpen its intelligence of self-knowledge.

Alone Tonight can determine a line of force of your becoming, through a sort of imaginary intrusion into a world that others can never access. But for this, loneliness – the darkness of a moment – must be your motivation, the product of the determination of going on a superior path of knowledge, and not something super depressing.

* Note: Above & Beyond - Alone Tonight