Certamen Triplicis

True salvation comes not from confronting God, but from refusing to let Him go.

It is said that sand keeps in its grains the memory of all travelers who have ever passed by. And in that nameless desert, the scribe experienced a stirring dream, in which three words were spoken to him in three different languages: "Ego, Mundus, Deus". It was a revelation about the three battles that every man fights throughout his life, whether he recognizes them or ignores them. Three fights that define the entire human existence, three arenas in which the soul is chiseled, or broken.

The first battle is with yourself with your shadows, with your unspoken fears, with that stranger in the mirror who knows all your weaknesses and uses them against you in your most vulnerable moments. The ultimate conflict is not with failure, but with your own inability to sustain the intensity of a revelation.

The second battle is with the rest of the world with the people who pull you down, with the systems that want to standardize you, with the voices that tell you that your dreams are too big or too small for the place you occupy. Between the resistance of the world and the call of the divine, you truly grow.

But the third battle, the most mysterious and difficult of all, is the battle with God Himself. It is not a battle of destruction, but a battle of rapprochement, a Certamen Sacrum in which the stake is not victory, but equality. Sublime, isn't it? You are not challenged to be defeated, but to be sculpted by a force that does not accept incomplete forms.

Leadership: Are you ready to stop fighting to win, but to become worthy of what is revealed to you as a miracle?

I remember how, that night, Jacob, the one who wrestled with the Angel at the ford of Jabbok until dawn, appeared to me in a dream. "Don't you understand yet," he said to me in his imposing voice, "that my struggle was not about physical strength, but about refusing to let the divine leave me? I did not win - no one wins God. But I achieved something more precious than victory: I achieved an equal, a recognition, a new name that means "He who wrestled with God and succeeded is a reason for praise and blessing."

This is the metaphor that few understand. Fighting God does not mean rising up against Him with clenched fists and the arrogance of one who thinks he can conquer heaven. It means something else, something much more subtle and painful. It means not giving up on Him just when He seems to have abandoned you.

When you are lost, when you are alone, when darkness covers all your hopes and you feel that God has turned his back on you that is the time for the real fight. It is not about the fight to defeat Him, but about the fight to call Him back, to insist, to not let Him go until He blesses you. For the most important battles are not the ones you win, but the ones you refuse to give up even when all seems lost.

Leadership: Are you ready to convert the pain of fidelity into a coherent vision so that you can master how revelation restores your inner world?

That night, my dream revealed a truth that forever changed my understanding of faith: "Those who turn to evil or stop fighting do so because they have misinterpreted God's silence. They have thought that silence means abandonment. But divine silence is, in fact, the ultimate challengethe opportunity to prove that you deserve to be blessed by the simple act of not giving up."

It was a Lex Perseverantiae Divinae the law that says blessing does not come to those who wait passively, but to those who refuse to accept God's absence as a final verdict.

Only in the vastness of the infinite desert did I understand that exhaustion, wounds, the feeling of abandonment all these are just the ingredients necessary for the struggle to have meaning. If God were always present, always visible, always answering every cry, then what merit would faith have? What value would inner strength have? Would that fundamental value on which a relationship based on trust is built still exist?

Exactly: precisely in those moments when you feel the loneliest, when your knees buckle and your arms no longer have the strength to lift themselves, precisely then you must cry out: "I will not let You go! I will not accept Your leaving me! Bless me or fight with me until dawn!"

Leadership: Are you ready to accept that moments of apparent spiritual abandonment are, in fact, the most powerful calls to an authentic relationship with the sacred?

But the most profound revelation came when, in the dream, Jacob added, almost in a whisper: "The secret that no one tells is that God needs man, just as much as man needs God."

I was speechless. It was a statement that turned everything in my mind upside down. How can the Creator need His creation, His image in matter? How can the Infinite depend on the finite? And yet, in that moment, I felt the truth of these words vibrating in every fiber of my being. God lives through our stories, through our struggles, through our refusal to give up. Without people to call upon Him, without souls to seek Him, without hearts to insist that He exists even in the darkness God would be a flame without oxygen, a story without a listener, a loner without an echo.

And so, the desert scribe wrote in his sand book the last words of that night:

"He who does not separate himself from God will be saved. Not because he defeated Him, but because he refused to let Him go. Blessing is not a gift offered to the weak, but a recognition granted to those who, exhausted, wounded and abandoned, continued to cry out in the darkness: Stay with me! "

Leadership means accepting vulnerability in the face of an image with profound contrasts, so that the connection with the sacred takes on a powerful meaning.

Certamen Triplicis is the symbol of the three major existential conflicts. In a dream, from the desert that surrounded me, I understood that the three struggles with the self, with the world, with God are not separate, but are one and the same struggle seen from three different angles.

When you fight with yourself, you are actually fighting with the image of God within you. When you fight with the world, you face the challenges of His creation. And when you fight with Him directly, you are fighting for the right to exist in His light. And salvation does not come to the one who wins all these battles, but to the one who, in the end, can say: "I fought. I did not give up. And even though I am wounded and lame like Jacob, I carry within me the blessing of the one who refused to accept darkness as the final answer to the call of life."