Teach Me To Die Painlessly
Dare to look at you just the way you are, without letting yourself enslaved by energy consuming feelings.
Everything bares in itself the seed of another, good or bad, just as every feeling bares in itself something indispensable, from the Paradise or Inferno, resulting in a multitude of possible combinations. Thus, everything transmitted to you, induced, insinuated through subtle messages, lacking the power to challenge their veracity, interpreting them as your many thoughts and convictions, constantly reacts with your mind, giving birth to a new unfavorable psychic tension.
After-hours, in a full moment of reflection, Laura Quinn, full of indignation, anger, regret, grief, foreboding, is suddenly disturbed by the appearance of Mister Hobbs, the office cleaner. We are witnessing a scene that seems to be cut from the works of Baum, when little Dorothy magically wakes up high on top of a vortex and is carried miles and miles away, in a total darkness, living her worst nightmare.
"How was that saying? The last shall be the first, and the first shall be the latter. A bunch of nonsense. Luck favors only the bold." - Mr. Hobbs addresses her in a gentle voice. In the middle of a cyclone, the air is usually calmer, so Laura can take refuge in a less somber parallel reality, or at least that’s what he is trying to convince her.
Are you able to create the premises of a transparent decision-making process under the conditions of an individual responsibility, expressing yourself categorically against the tendency of choosing a later spiritual reward instead of an immediate one?
Unwillingly, a reckless, arrogant smile formed on Laura’s lips. Her senses, these roses withered by bitterness and anger still save a tenderness ideal. And when her irresistible tenderness meets with her gentle nature, that imperceptible form of positive energy in herself can be guessed, the spontaneous creation of a chemical reaction that still produces heat, providing the necessary stimuli limit for life.
But at the same time, the hostile reality consumes her wholly. Each particle in her being is activated, the total number of molecules that totally exert their domination over the Man within her collide simultaneously and react abnormally. The resulting energy is channeled towards a bizarre purpose, opposite to the initial one, losing itself gradually, with antisocial consequences.
Her grey thoughts, so subtle that we could hardly decipher, seem to enter through minuscule teary gates: Rather than reminding me of what I am, of what I have become without my will, rather than intensify these dark, overwhelming feelings that consume me and chain me in the arms of helplessness, better teach me to die painlessly. I had enough ! "
This kind of thoughts that aren’t revealed in front of other beings indicate the time between two crucial moments whose completely different meanings are deciphered only by angels. Energy torrents similar to light, but of different nature and necessary to involution, create irregularities in her actions. What’s left behind – and only through their interception and interpretation – is a deep understanding of the Man within her, a relevant verification and validation of her emotions in contrast with those of others.
The poor woman barely utters a word, rather out of politeness, while a jolt of fear freezes the blood in her veins, depleting it of oxygen. Everything that keeps her alive, that inspires and motivates her to go further, is carried out under the dome of the present, filled only with a little hope dust.
Mister Hobbs leaves the room. Only now, the wild wounded swallow awakens from numbness, completely responsible for her evolution. Only now she realizes how disturbing sees herself. *
Is the reality you derive from the constant course of daily details appropriate to the effect of the greatest importance of experiencing existence by revealing the Self in such a way as to prove the effectiveness of the individual deed that cannot be erased or canceled?
Do you have the power to challenge the veracity of the others’ points of view? Does the reality you perceive as hostile consume you wholly? Do your senses still keep a tenderness ideal? Do you feel completely responsible of your evolution? Are you aware of how disturbing you regard yourself?
Each individual goes through a moment called "Blacklight", consumer of energy in the secondary circuit of their existence. Then, it passes through a state of semi-anesthesia, some sort of vast and gloomy dissatisfaction, a slowing of thoughts. In the end, it may reach apathy, drowsiness, the sudden interruption of the clarity of thought, of its own image, determining indecision in actions.
A fight between destiny and the Man within you, whose ending isn’t immediately visible, but expected to come, and whose echo resounds when you reach the last round: the moment you transfer in the present that intensity of feeling, that dizzying agony of suspense: "to carry on or to give up?"
When Laura searched her heart and mind for the motivator of the perpetrator who can create strong and motivating visions that can have important effects on the evolution of personal destiny, she always asked herself: "Can my acts be erased or canceled from the register of my own exasperation?"
We see leadership included here as a protection factor of the being that faces astounding life situations under the rule of the absolute necessity of being integrated in an existential "update", instead of being a leading actor in the dynamic of some internal cumulative causalities. The victim of some objective factors that she is clearly responsible of, can create a totally uninspired result that determines isolation, emotional and moral decay, the combinations between them could take a diagonal shape, that is a distinct inclination to dramatizing one’s own life.
Before finding out where you are wrong as a leader you have to find out where you are wrong as a person, when the spine of your very own existence is incorrectly positioned. So your leadership comes into play when the results of these moods are allowed to teach you what you must change about yourself so that you get closer to the border with normalcy.
In order to reach your leader potential don't let these existential divagations aggravate, but try to prove your vitality. Dare to look at yourself the way you are, without letting yourself enslaved by energy consuming feelings.
Can you control the tension of the delicate sensitivity of your deeds so that you can overcome the immediate effects of a guilty attitude and create the premises for future revelatory benefits?
The complex of "weather" factors in your life activates either heat, rain, or draught. Joys, passing disdain, or sadness bordering depression. Homogeneous and constant components, or unstable and fluctuating components of a spiritual natural, that don’t act equally to prevent any dangerous situations from arising.
This variety of factors that affects your functional area determines the change of your orientation, implicitly a new type of existential gadget. A psychology, which closely communicates with the leadership through which you can see how ready and resilient you are to the harsh conditions you will deal with in the great challenge of your evolution.
Your constitutive elements, your mood and your capacity to socialize may vary in relation with "weather changes", exerting with great results over leadership whose evolution curve is based on your passage from the shadows to the light.
Distinguishing good from harmful factors is difficult because it depends on the decisions you take when the storm is unleashed within you. You can tear from it, or you can let yourself be swallowed by it, carried away for miles in a total darkness, living your darkest nightmare.
A rewarding benefit is the advantage gained from a new concept of life, born out of joy and sadness, which can bring you the chance to challenge yourself to accept a reality that is stubborn to react to the rules of others.
Teach Me To Die Painlessly points out the reality perceived as hostile that consumes you wholly creating irregularities in your actions, being felt as an existential painful ending. It is absolutely necessary to be vigilant and prevent such moments by taking appropriate measures for yourself, so that the life ahead won’t be so painful.
Whenever you’re having a hard time, when you feel you are at the end of the road, don’t ever give up on that tenderness ideal that fuels you, because it’s the only impulse that can give you back the joy of living and can support your ascension.
* Note: Flawless (2007)
