The Conditionings Of Leadership

Man’s reason for proving his right to exist is fulfilled when he assigns himself a higher purpose where there is, in fact, nothing more than a consequence of failure.

Everything within me asked for a truthful answer, a guiding comparison between a world visible on a wide spectrum of medicine and a world invisible through the unclear spectrum of a biological phenomenon, worthy of science-fiction, called Zombies, with increasingly sophisticated and diverse threats that enormously complicated my life. This, to the extent in which I could not manifest my skepticism for the strange events, superior to the distinction between good and evil.

Death was represented all around me and it was a consequence of the inability to interpret an accumulation of errors and collateral effects.

You could say that the deepest essence that kept me in a constant state of alert, as a mysterious fluid traveling through the effect of alternative pulsations to which I was subjected, born out of pretending to be a geneticist, was a new reality of the relationship of experience-modelling of the contexts of spreading the virus – a condition necessary for the progress of knowledge. All of this cost me an emotional imbalance that still persists.

The passage from vulnerability to strength in the face of an uncertain future is conditioned by the assumption of an active role, one capable of transforming the unknown into a ground for the affirmation of one’s own worth.

Here is a valuable clue. My main quality, that of a man surpassing his limits through a victory over the harming potential of reality, was that of closing myself within me, into an immense trunk of loneliness. Surely, my chance of surviving a battle without victory from which the winners have no way of escaping, was an answer to the recommendation of an echo that blurred the state of weakness and helplessness. As if to spite any violent attacks of the virus, maintained by the silence of doubts that prevented any heroic reaction.

In a relatively short time, I have reached a state of force, passing through the troubling questions raised before me by the evolution of medicine and the prodigious development of the virus. This could be achieved only by consecrating myself in a positive role. Something that constantly stirred my interest in manifesting the inability to resist an unknown that was the future itself, akin to Arsène Lupine trying to break free from the grip of an unfavorable fate. Something that kept insisting to convince me of my own value by loaning trinkets.

Are you in such a state of intensity that you come to deny the aesthetic dimension of life in favor of a higher purpose?

I have attacked the aesthetic purpose of a life full of joy through a prevalence of the experience of belonging to a world that fails, in order to assign it a higher purpose: that of performing a miracle. Thus, I myself had to serve not as a plausible explanation of the constantly uncertain phenomena, independent of my will, but rather as a logic that fit perfectly in the equation of the necessity of saying "NO" to any previous experience of death.

Especially, I proved a leadership focused on the aspect of experience that resonates simultaneously in both mysteries, life and death, anywhere I would go to and no matter what would happen to me. In this regard, the true measure of leadership was the strength of facing a higher force that everyone neglected, and one which only I have used in order to amplify my ability to adapt to new situations: survival.

Only a master of unexpected twists, only a single winning number through so many fatalistic consequences of an alleged apocalypse, only a unique global project could impose itself decisively. Only a unique system of information, given by the difference between the determinant dynamic of the conditions of viral spreading and the baseline of the conditions of outbreak containment, could somehow appease the insistencies of evil to rule the chaos of the world.

The work of an authentic artist, capable of navigating through emotion and the unknown, entails the acceptance of a positive role in the profound transformations generated by the relationship between life and death.

French metaphysician Dom Deschamps refused the idea of a qualifiable God, to whom he had substituted the void as an immanence pf the Universal Whole. In my reality, the model of neutralizing the virus as a unique means of incubation could not be seen. And this especially since everything was subjected to a force whose effect was identical with that of the void: an infectious form of manifestation around a dimension that could not be detected endoscopically or radiologically.

I believe life and death are not expressions of belonging to a divine order, but rather expressions of a mysterious and immeasurable energy that governs the entire food chain of a new power. And maybe this power must be accepted, respected, recognized as a unique approach to the pathology called hate, antipathy, aversion to ignorance and mediocrity.

The more adverse fate seems, the more curiosity about the unknown becomes the primary means of overcoming the threshold of powerlessness in trying to understand what surpasses you.

The Conditionings Of Leadership are given by the degree of man’s perfection in the atmosphere of times that stretch his patience to the limits of experimental knowledge, and by the reason of man to demonstrate his right to existence in the face of the contrast between the uncertainty of passing life and the active, stimulating element.

The degree of man’s perfection belongs only to an existence that proves itself to be full of uncertainties, lurked by terrible dangers, but adventurous. And the reason of man to demonstrate his right to existence is fulfilled when he assigns himself a higher purpose where there is only consequence.

* Note: World War Z